In This Life

Grief is unavoidable and universal; a painfully physical experience in which language is often inadequate and where words are often unable to convey loss or to comfort it.  In five acts, this film illustrates the stages of grief, exploring the language of loss through dance, narrative scenes, and performance art, conveying the complexity of grief in the often wordless way it impacts all our lives.

After every major loss, we must grieve for the person we used to be, for the future we thought we'd have. The journey to accept this new version of ourselves is often fraught with rage and pain as we shed our old skin to make way for the new. This film is about that journey.

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Directed by
Bat-Sheva Guez

Written by
Bat-Sheva Guez & Robbie Fairchild

Robbie Fairchild

James Alsop, Warren Craft,  Robbie Fairchild, Andrea Miller, Christopher Wheeldon

Giacomo Belletti

Production Design
Karen Weber

Kathleen Laituri, Heather Lang, Rico Lebron, Martha Nichols, Michael Rosen, Ahmad Simmons,  Ryan Steele, Abby Stephensen, Cassandra Surianello, Julien Valme

*** Find us on instagram, youtube and facebook via #InThisLifeFilm

Additional Festivals/Screenings:
Newport Beach Film Festival
Art of Brooklyn Film Fest
Lighthouse International Film Festival
Kashish Mumbai International Queer Film Festival
Bolton International Film Festival
ADF Movies by Movers
Exit-6 Film Festival
On Art, Poland
Elba International Film Festival
InShadow Screendance Film Festival, Lisbon
Reel Affirmations Film Festival, Washington DC
Santa Monica College

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IN THIS LIFE will screen at Lighthouse Film Festival 🌟😎 congratulations Bat-Sheva Guez, Robbie Fairchild and, Jeanette Bonner AdventurePantsFilm #FFacceptances #inthislifefilm #filmmaking #filmfestivals #filmmakers

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So I’m a day late...but it’s been a crazy busy two days of filming my first dance film #inthislifefilm An exploration of the language of loss. Beyond grateful to be collaborating with these amazing artists! ❤️❤️❤️batshevaguez giacomobelletti dremills_gallim wheeldony jamesals0p #warrencraft michaelhsurosen heatherblee rysteele ahmadsimmons nichols14 julienvalme kathleen_laituri cassysurianello eslyn9 ricolebron jortface dottavio77 #dreamer #filmmaker #danceonfilm #dance #storytelling #producer ...

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Thanks dancemagazine for the exclusive look of #inthislifefilm
Click my link in bio to see footage from the film and to hear a bit about the process and why my director batshevaguez and I wanted to make it.

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“You’re a winner baby.” rupaulofficial
With the help of so many amazing artists we made #inthislifefilm and it won Best Experimental at brooklynfilmfestival Thank you to all who made this happen!!!

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Act lll #inthislifefilm
Choreography by andreamiller_gallim
Photo by dottaviophoto
NYC Premiere
July 12th 8:45 pm
Walter Reade Theater
Ticket link in bio.

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West Coast Premiere
Tonight Nov 20th 7:30 pm
The Broad Stage
Santa Monica, CA
FREE!!! No tickets required
#inthislifefilm thebroadstage #thebroadstage #robbiefairchild batshevaguez #batshevaguez smcedu #smc

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T H A T ‘ S A W R A P ! Holy shit we just made a movie! batshevaguez giacomobelletti #inthislifefilm #warrencraft jamesals0p dremills_gallim wheeldony rysteele ahmadsimmons kathleen_laituri cassysurianello julienvalme eslyn9 heatherblee michaelhsurosen nichols14 ricolebron mfairchild17 leahlynnd andeedooley sunnie_kim wearerivka dottavio77 jortface i_am_jamaal lils_______ kellyspoolhall kwyoyo mammamakesmovies akatwithacameraphone beckybodurtha jeanetteebonner #dreamer #producer #dancer #actor #filmmaker ...

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#inthislifefilm is having a good festival run! it won Best Experimental Film at brooklynfilmfestival had a great priemire at lincolncenter’s #danceoncamerafestival, and just won Best Musical Film at flickers.riiff! What an amazing vision by batshevaguez and robbiefairchild, so honored to have done production design on the project 🌊 #film #dancefilm #filmfest #lincolncenter #brooklynfilmfestival #riiff2019 #webersnyc ...

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Thursday. Watching playback so we could do jamesals0p choreography justice ❤️ #inthislifefilm rysteele ahmadsimmons cassysurianello kathleen_laituri julienvalme eslyn9 batshevaguez ...

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Up close and personal. Day 2 is a wrap. #inthislifefilm #dreamer #dancer #actor #filmmaker #producer #lotsofhats #danceonfilm batshevaguez giacomobelletti wearerivka ...

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It seemed like a weird time to announce how psyched we were to have IN THIS LIFE selected for the newportbeachfilmfest, especially because it’s been postponed from April to August and especially given the upheaval all film festivals are having right now between cancellations, refunds and moving online. But this still of robbiefairchild from the Bargaining dance of our short film about grief reminded me that life is forever altering itself; controlling it is as futile as trying to catch water itself, and this too is just a stage in the journey. ✨ We are *thrilled* to be an official selection of this 20-yr festival that programs films offering new perspectives for a changing world. Exactly what we all need right now. .
#inthislifefilm #shortexperimentaldance #danceonfilm #danceoncamera #fivestagesofgrief #indiefilm #womeninfilm #femaleproducers

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We have 2 blocks of #ExperimentalFilm at #AoBFF20. Tonight at 6PM is FILM AS ART Block A - followed by a #livestream #artist and #filmmaker #talkback! Get tickets at and #supportindiefilm Trailer edited by jking811 music brianbonz #inthislifefilm ...

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Tonight is the night!
Walter Reade Theater
Thanks for the shoutout nytimes
Come and join us opening night of the Dance on Camera Festival at Lincoln Center where our dance film is having it’s premiere!
#inthislifefilm repost batshevaguez

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In This Life
Premieres at Dance on Film Festival
Lincoln Center
Walter Reade Theater
July 12th
$15 tickets ***********

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It’s so rewarding to watch #inthislifefilm have a solid festival run. It was an honor to be the #productiondesigner on this #experimental #dancefilm exploring the five stages of #grief. Directed by batshevaguez, we follow robbiefairchild through dark and mysterious realms of movement choreographed by artists such as #warrencraft, #jamesalsop, andreamiller_gallim, wheeldony and robbiefairchild. It was a culmination of so many incredible people and ideas and I’m in awe of the beauty we created together! ...and I’ll never forget the hours of sewing delicate gray chiffon projection panels 😅 Shout out forever to the best art assist sunnie_kim! #webersnyc ...

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O N E Y E A R A G O T O D A Y . . I left #nycballet I just remember that day being so much fun. It was a moment to reflect on the incredible 12 years there. I chose to look at it as a celebration of all the ballets I danced and all of the dancers I got to dance them with❤️ And then boom... the big jump into the unknown. It’s been an incredible year with a lot of firsts...First film The Chaperone, which comes out this summer, first encores at #nycitycenter Brigadoon, first off broadway play Mary Shelley’s Frankenstein, first TV pilot Mixtape which got picked up by Netflix and films this spring, first feature film (hopefully I can tell you soon) and I co-created and co-produced two dance films this summer that will come out soon, #inthislifefilm will hopefully go through the film festival circuit (fingers crossed) and #enough will come out very soon in time for the November elections. A lot of growing. A lot of learning. And a lot of healing. None of these would be possible without an incredible community of collaborators and talented artists so I thank everyone I have worked with for holding my hand on this journey into the unknown. On another note, it is such a privilege to have YOU, my Instagram friends, as such a support system in my life. I keep my personal life as personal as possible but it is so special for me to get to share with you what’s going on with me professionally. Going from company member to freelancer has been incredible but can be lonely at times, so I thank you all for the company:) #dreamer and HUgE congrats to joaquindeluz who retired yesterday!!! ...

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Still can’t believe this happened. Premiered a film at Lincoln Center with the help of so many incredible people. T’was a very special night. Thanks to all who came out to see it and for all the love that was sent. We are working on our online release but until then.... Rhode Island Film Festival, HERE WE COME!
batshevaguez We Did it!!! dancefilms #inthislifefilm

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#inthislifefilm yesterday with robbiefairchild. Thanks to the awesome team who worked so quickly and efficiently. batshevaguez ...

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In This Life
West Coast Premiere
Nov 20th at 7:30pm
thebroadstage at SMC Performing Arts Center
Q&A w/ me and batshevaguez
Free and open to the public!

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